Hello again

I am a terrible Blogger! Last blog post was May how bad is that!!! Well update needed, I got in to the ten stone bracket just yay and was very pleased but then put bit of weight back on but have then since been stuck but I am maintaining which is fab that i can do that but not great when I'm not at goal yet! I am stuck around eleven stone i tend to be very good all week and stay 11 by fri i am usually a pound or two under 11 then weekend i have stoped dieting and just enjoy what i want when i want it and so by Monday am usually just over 11 and then that is my cycle at the moment! I have stoped going to Weight Watchers and this is props not good as to go would help me more but have changed to a much better job for me but sadly took a bit of a pay cut so cant afford to go and also cant afford to go Zumba class either it would mean id have no money for a life at the weekend to go out n about with my daughter and partner so that matters more to me. Also Ive fell in love and am in a very happy relationship yay :) As most women know this can help you relax and get cosy n comfortable and put on weight. I think this is due to the fact u maybe eat out together and drink and socialise more and hell they seen you naked all the wobbly bits the ten chins and they still love you so what the hell, that sound familiar peeps ? But I am still counting all my points Monday to Friday being good and exercising a bit in the week (need to do more though) I jog still or do my exercise DVDs at home. I really do want to drop more |I am not happy at 112 stone i want another stone off but unless i start counting at the weekends again n be back to 100 % it ain't gonna happen and I know that its just distractions are everywhere now and my diet was the main focus before and now its not its droped in priority so I need to shift it up  and focus.

Weigh In day

Ok so I was right It was terrible I put on loads, enough said!!!

Feeling total rubbish !

OK I did it last week got past the hurdle of losing 4 stone so was very proud and happy. However this week has been rubbish I mean so so bad!!! I have not had a bad day or two or a bad week I'm gonna be total honest here its been a bad week Ive lost it not exercised lost will power and just acted like I used to and am feeling so crap about it. It was socialising and partying way to much drinking and BBQ's that I thought sod it might as well go the whole hog am gonna put weight on this week anyway( such a bad attitude)

Even tonight knowing I got to weigh in tomorrow I cheated couldn't stop myself just a few days or so of eating rubbish is such a no no as in that fast a time you crave the junk you get the rush n then the come down n hunger pains n eat more n yep there is the vicious circle that all over eaters face and it regains control that quick hence why this has to be changes for life and a battle i always have to fight. Of course i can when slim have naughty weekends n have fun but no more than 2 and i must work to make up for it get in the exercise not ignore my problem like always that's whats got me in to this mess.

I feel so down n tired n drained didn't got to Zumba tonight as I had a bad migraine and I know why because of the rubbish that's been in my system this week hardly had any proper good food and I was having hunger pains n craving carbs and sugar so now n I will so get back on it tomorrow for sure I will need to have a few days withdraw from the junk n salt in my body and it will hurt shrinking my stomach like the start of the diet again n hate that it sucks but its my own dam doing!!!

I can see my chin has grown this week ( vile ) and my stomach is so bloated n I'm just feeling Gross and very very chicken I don't want to go n get weighed i don't want the humiliation its going to be total shame really such a fail I know I will have gone back in to the twelves again after trying so hard to get out of them I'm disgusting really I am.

Yes the fun drinking n that with friends was great but I should of had self control and could of had fun without the extremes there was no need! I always run away and hide but I'm going to go Weight Watchers and pay my £6 for gaining weight ( what a foolish waste n all my own doing again!) I just pray to go Ive not put on half a stone in a week that will be very very bad n way to much but feel its sadly very possible seriously this wasn't no ikkle slip of gaining a few pounds i just lived like the old me n spoilt myself constantly, eating sugar cereal ( big bowls ) toast n cheese or a normal bread sandwich n then Chinese n cake or a BBQ or sausage and mash and days of drinking wine n gin n greedy amounts ( always terrible with the drink )  etc etc eeek!!!!!

So many excuses seeing friends royal wedding sun shinning, bank holiday blah blah but what it boils down to is Ive had a few things on my mind n cheered myself up by having a ball n being Miss party n lets treat myself with food make everything all full n happy n lovely n no all its done is make me feel yuk!

So just had to blog n get out the stuff on my mind to help me sleep as I'm in tears here n cant drop off I don't want to gain it all n go back to that person I wanna be free n beautiful n healthy n have a dam life where i have fun doing stuff n fun isn't a meal or a treat of crappy food in frount of a dvd alone forever I wanna find love at some point, but more important than that I wann feel good and be content and its so shite really and oh my god i cant believe I'm being this open n honest in a fecking blog!!!

I'm quite tempted to rewrite or not post this on Fb for people to click on the link but no I'm gonna be real n face the shit for once! Ive done so dam well changed me and this week has been like a bad dream n horrid blast from the past n not worth it so I will be good guarantee to myself to lose as of nest week ( tomorrow forget it!) But I haven't gone that back that I will quit I never want to be like that n am to stubborn so I'm gonna work hard all week. I will never meet someone till I love me n was starting to very slowly n am not killing the relationship I am starting with me, I'm worth more.

So I will prty n drink but will exercise next day n eat very low calories before n day after to make up n balance it like Ive been doing not say sod it, this will be the week to forget and its done Ive been honest Ive cry ed I will face the number tomorrow n move on That's that!

Ps I dunno if i will be honest about how much I gain tomorow ??? I will go though promise just wanna get back on target track asap or i will be gutted.

Weigh in Day(update)

Yessss 2lbs off today that mean I am in the 11stone bracket at last n out of the 12's FINALLY! 2lbs short of losin 4 stone so bring it on next wk :)

Spring and everythings growing even me just not in size!

Hi had a lovely week saw friends and it was Mother's day and I had a nice lunch with my daughter. Both theses events involved cheating but all was in moderation I ate well and stuck to points on Saturday night just was bit naughty with a few Gin n Tonics then Sunday I had fish and Chips at the pub n boy was it yummy but did have fruit salad after n resisted the choc pud so that was good for me! Last few day's ive ate good and really did lots of sweating yesterday I ran round the block went to Zumba, walked two miles and did a fitness dvd, today im shattered! But all worth it must of got rid of the fish n chips/ booze calories and more as lost 2 lbs this week :)

Yesterday my jog was a bit of  a breakthrough i got a further distance and joged the whole way round the block with out stoping once and untill then had never done that befor always had to have a little walk inbetween so was really chuffed!

I sat and thought about as a person I am getting so much more energetic now and the good fuel i am putting inside me is doing the power of good. Exersise is starting to really give me such highs after a Zumba session each week im always buzzing and want to run for a while after as have to much energy and after a stressfull time at work or just one of them day's a bit of exersise puts smile back on my face and before it was food that did that I would comfort myself with a drink, chocolate or a take away. Im not saying still dont now and again but being with my friend and giving my body a good ass kickin really, unbeliveable as it sounds is so much more enjoyable!

Im getting a life at last my confidence has grown its not 100 % and dont think it will ever be but i was getting to the point where i didnt want to go out because id rather hide indoors where no one could see me as I hated to be next to my beautiful friends looking like a slob, i didnt want to dance because i wobbled! This wasent me, I used to years ago love going out and now im coming back at last.

All i want to do at the moment in the lovely spring sunshine is run and have fun at work tonight we were on a walk at a local woods and i was skipping and raceing the children and it was fun and I didnt care what i looked like if i was jiggling around they were having a good time and so was I.

I thought I was just on a diet and making changes to my long term health and looks but no it's so much more I have improved my emotions, mental well being and feel like a better happy person and a better Mum slowly the social life is on the up and I have noticed my moods are great now I used to suffer terrible with PMT but i am finding I go months now and am fine then when i do have its it's no longer as bad as before.

I looked at some Photo's of me a year ago and they are so horrible I never want to be that big again, I still cant belive i let myself get like that, i really was trapped inside myself.

Easter is coming up next few weeks and you know Im at the moment not even bothered about Chocolate and not dreading it I think i will not even over indulge and be fine ( give it a few weeks i will probs be eating my words afetr eating other things i shouldnt ha ha hope not though)

In this weeks mini weight watchers magazine there are some great new recipes and I am eating a lot of the same old things and think im going to try at least three new dishes this week and see how I get on. I will let you know.

Goodness that was a long post I do go on a bit dont I sorry peeps ;)

Weigh in day

Yes lost 3 pounds this week so on target to get to the next stone off only five more pounds to go n that's 4 st Bring it on baby! I felt bloated n fat today 2 weird ?

Slowly slowly Catchy Monkey!

Lost another four pounds this last two weeks so pleased its going down at a nice gentle pace right now but as they say slow and steady wins the race! Trying to stick to my mini targets I set myself and want to get another stone off by mid April so need to lose at least 2 pounds next week then keep at that pace n all will be good so ? Going to walk walk and walk some more this week as the sun is shinning and its beautiful really lifts the mood.

7th Month Itch?

Ello bloggers Ive been neglecting the Diet blog for a while so must get n do a update. Well was having bit of a brick wall moment as you know then missed WW for a week and well sommat did the trick as lost half a stone in 2 wks so fantastic hurdled over that dam wall and felt good to get a reward for hard work at last so that helped step up motivation again.

I then lost a pound and a half next wk but then just seemed to have a dip again n lost motivation and don't know why had a terrible week last wk not just a bad day or two a real bad week where I just thought sod it and am so cross with myself for getting like that as I put on 2 n a half pounds the worst Ive been on this journey so far ( was in fact relived it could of been so much worse the crap I ate n was so lazy!)

Ive been thinking and is it like a 7month Itch you get so far and with the road ahead so long still do you get a bit rebellious and be naughty ? I have come so far though and love being healthy now that no bad day , two or even bloody week are gonna stop me I got over it and am being good again still feeling lazy at the mo n need to step up my exercise again just bit tired from work I think but I know if I make the effort i will feel more energetic and better so this week going to do lots of swimming, walking and get a keep fit DVD on and get on the Just Dance!

All it is is excuses I am first to admit that funny how it is around 7 months though! Had a new hair style today and feel so good so far that Ive just gotta keep at it as I cant wait to look and feel even better. Might join a gym ? Maybe as a change in exercise routine might be just the ticket and something New keeps up the enjoyment and motivation humm? Will have a think.  Going to get some sleep now as got to cook up a weeks worth of soups, exercising, doing housework and make time to have a sit down and watch The Biggest loser (most Important as always inspires me at same time as being a good program to watch with feet up on day off!) tomorrow so sweet dreams and keep fingers crossed I shift that two and a half pounds I put on this week at least x

Hey Willpower where u at ?

Another BADDDD few days oh dear seem to be having a few of them recently! Think it because I'm still stuck as far as i know my scales say I am but didn't get to weigh in this week due to school parents evenings. So don't know properly how well I did but just last few days have been the worst i couldn't be bothered was craving fatty foods and gave in ( KFC er oh !) and I didn't count at all so not very good.
Back on it today ( always get back on the horse if I'm thrown ) but don't want to keep having these dips in willpower its not worth it have felt real rubbish with the junk food inside me so off swimming today and will go for a jog later

What is it ? Is it Hormones lack of losing so feel I'm getting no reward ? I know its all in my head I know that and i am weak giving in so need to get tough again

Soups

Soups a great way to fill up and a yummy winter warmer
I have soup for lunch most days now your genral tins can be full of sugar and salt n hidden naughtys so I buy WW ones the magority of the time but they are still pointed and can be sometimes thin and a small amount so make your own is really the best thing to do its satisfing to make soups and they are very healthy and good way to get lots of veggies in to the children.

I chuck any good combination of vegtables in ( all zero Pro Points :) ) and then us 1 stock cube which on the old WW plan they were zero but now count as 1 PP shame as its nice to have made a soup and no its zero Pro Points and then you can have that little extra treat for dinner such as some nice sauce or a choccy pud for example

But yay have just been having a flick through the WW shoping guide ( big shop tomorow )  and so glad I did just noticed that Oxo cubes and Knorr brand stock cubes ( only cubes not granuels or other stocks) are zero Pro Points as long as you only use 1 so yay my soups can be free again and it all helps :)

Stuck !!!

OK hello all I am a bit annoyed and quite baffled I have been for last three weeks stuck at a point and am just not losing weight last week i lost just a Had the week before that i put on a half this week I stayed the same!

Now it could be that naughty day I had this week ( told you I only have to be a bit naughty to spoil things, I have to be 100 % good or else there is not treats allowed for me and I'm not being hard on myself that's sadly the way it is ) but I was good after did lots of jogging ??? ( when i didn't want to as well )

Spoke to my leader who asked what I'm eating and she said east more carbs ???? WHAT ! I really don't want to as might put on and I really want to break past the three stone point and get well in to the 12 stone bracket. I eat a lot of veg and protein thought that was good ? But she said I am lacking in carbs so must have a little to make my diet fair and more balanced as it is in all other areas having little protein, dairy, fat and fibre each day but hardly any potatoes and haven't had rice or pasta for a while so I have to add little bits boooo :( ( they make me bloat)

I am also going to watch my portion size this week and am going to weight everything I eat and be so particular ( which is a right pain, I weigh a few things but guess at others but done that all way through diet so why is its that is it only slowing weight loss now ?)

Also found out my cereal portion is to big and have been counting it at 4 pp instead of the 5pp oops ! Thanks to my mate for spotting that but I dunno always since September last year been eating like that and steadily losing so I don't know ? Am just hoping that these little changes and continued daily exercise for a hour will make a difference if not well I am stumped and will be off to the docs as its getting annoying three weeks and no loss is sooo frustrating as I am behind target now and really want to catch up

Its tough and I think it may well be portion sizes but I don't like to feel hungry as my blood sugar tends to drop and I feel dizzy so am upping my fruit intake 2 and having two snacks a day instead of the one mid morning banana

Now having the banana in cereal to fill up at breakfast as portion is now much smaller

Then a piece of fruit mid morning

Lunch soup or sandwich with salad

Afternoon snack of some fruit or a ryvita

Dinner chicken, fish, WW meal or quorn meat substitute with lots of veg or salad and maybe a jacket potato and small portion of pasta or rice then a WW yogurt and or fruit !

That's pretty similar to what i was and have been doing all way through just adding more fruit and small sized dinners and adding carbs to dinner so will keep fingers crossed and hope for better week right I'm off to sweat and workout be for i go to work bye for now :)

BTW If anyone has any thoughts or ideas what could be affecting my weight loss snag or any comments that would be great and always nice to see comments from people and your thoughts :) Take care x

New day

Thank goodness I got my groove back today, It's funny but when u in middle of a bad day you just cant see yourself out of it.

But all positive again and back on track and feel so good to have done lots of exercise today :)

Down unenthusastic day ! Aka fell off diet wagon a bit :(

Really cant be ass ed today being very naughty havent exercised in 4 day's and been naughty with food today ahh need to start again tomorrow or this long road ahead will be even longer.
Feeling so lazy but I suppose it the first slip off wagon since Christmas but cant make excuses must get ass in gear tomorrow when its a new day!

Might go n watch The biggest loser to try n motivate me and maybe try n jog later this eve hate it when i get like this as its not very often and feels like I am just hindering my weight loss ( which I am , am gonna be so mad at myself on weigh in day this week at this rate )

Erg Rubbish !!!!

Learning to understand/ accept ( not like but accept!) the rhythm of my body

Well was weigh in tonight and am so close to losing 3 stone ( 5 pounds away ) that i really want to get to it and past it , get out of the 13 stone's n in to the 12's.

So I worked hard real hard this week stuck to my points didnt under eat had not much salt stayed well hydrated and exersise not just 4 times but every day for over a hour and I lost .... half a pound ??? !!!

Not best pleased but ok its hard to understand and dont make sense but the way metabolisum works and the rhythm of peoples bodys well they are all diffrent some weeks you lose and another you may eat and do the same but not lose its frustrating but the way it go's!

Now this is where I am pleased with myself and growing in my Weight loss journey as months ago I would of sulked and been so very down that I had put in lots of effort and nothing much in return but I sort of get that my body dose this from looking at my weight loss chart i go middle to high loss then nxt wk no loss or small loss n thats that.

A friend of mine has a metabolisum that just works so slowly and it's tough for her she is constantly doing the right things but the weight drops off at a slow pace than most but still it's going down and we have to remeber that we are doing well as my leader told me tonight
She said dont get down keep doing what you are doing and it will proebly show next week and if not maybe a trip to the docs to get checked over to make sure no problems that are hindering weight loss but looking at how my body works she said your efforts will show nxt week and it wont be for nothing.

So when the scales seems to let me down I just say ok hey ho I wont sulk n cheat I will keeps at it and not get dragged in to a war n love / hate thing with scales no matter the pace weight is going down and health is going up along with confidence and a new outlook on life and also a increased life than possibly was before and that one hell of a bonus :)

Proud Moment

Just had a moment the other day that was great. I was having a clear out/ sort out of clothes and the amount i had to throw away because it was all to big was a big old pile ( three carrier bags ) this felt amazing even though i have nothing much to wear now.
Also and this to me is the best bit I have had a pair of nice knee high boots for years that i couldn't zip up because of my calf's and i tried them 2 weeks ago n still no joy yet this week try ed again and they zipped right up Yesssssss it felt fantastic and am loving my boots i feel so good wearing them :)
Hope I have some more moments like this soon

Rebecca Wheatley The new me workout review

Hi  this is a DVD i picked up last week 2nd hand again so its at least a year old maybe more not sure.
This is the actress that used to play Amy the receptionist in Casualty and she has lost a amazing 12 stone on slimming world plan and doing regular exercise. It took her 27 months so a nice sensible length of time.

The DVD appealed to me right away as she is very normal and down to earth and lost a great amount.

Its set in a living room setting so just like you at home so it feels relaxed Rebecca is lovely and lets her trainer guide you through only commenting the odd time as she is busy getting on with it and great to see her and the trainer sweat.

It starts with a warm up then has 3 sections, a Salsa moves, dance moves and a boxing type section ( my fave ) and until stage three you really don't feel tired or sweat and tend to think this is easy and not giving me a decent workout but that's just it its gradual and by end of section three you are sweating and then its a arms section ( tough at times )  then abs and legs bums and tums ( the leg raises ooh ouch ! )  and then a cool down and end of DVD i was tired and sweaty and all my body had a good exercise.

The trainer is great he gives you lots of stretches that some in DVDs don't do enough of i find and you need them to not suffer next day. He also keeps the exercise to short cardio bursts and then walks it through and gives a stretch so I give it my all knowing there is only a few more counts as its quick burst and then i can catch my breath a second this is great for keeping enthusiasm up and not slacking on the moves which can happen.

This is a enjoyable workout of simple level along the same lines as Rosemary Connerly type workouts starts off slow, steady and easy by end not in agony but warm bit sweaty and worked hard. So if you are looking for intense then this is not for you but its still effective.

If you do all parts of the DVD ( which if very overweight and new to exercise just do warm up one or two sections and either abs, arms and cool down till you can manage more) it takes about a hour.

The music isn't great a few tunes i recognised but they were just the instrumental i would of like the proper songs ( No Limits by 2 unlimited was one )  !

A diet and eating plan ( slimming world ) is at the end of workout

If you are a super fit person this could be a bit boring and maybe just one to do on the odd day.

The only negative is I am getting quite fit now despite the tum still getting in the way and I would of liked the moves at time to continue and the three main sections i would of liked to be pushed just a bit more and in the dance section its not much dance more moves and steps really would of liked this  to be more dance and faster.
I enjoy it and have done it 4 days in a row love the cardio bursts and friendly trainer who dose not annoy he is reassuring and comes across as pleasant.

Nell Mcandrew Peak Energy DVD Review

Hi well have been trying to push myself that bit more in exercise this week n get through pain barriers n really sweat as last week put on half a pound despite being good?

So Have just had a real personal achievement and am buzzin so had to do a review plus haven't done one in ages. Just completed the Nell Mcandrew Peak Energy workout have had it in my collection for a while and never got all the way through it as it's soooo tough a real killer and defo one for those with a good fitness level but I just did it n am shattered! Admittedly I did have to walk through a few moves and change the move they were doing to a easier impact one for example when they were doing jumping jacks non stop n I felt I couldn't go on for a min as was getting to painful i jogged it a slower pace for a min. but still Phew what a workout !

It's a good few years old from when Nell Mcandrew came out of the I'm a celeb jungle and its led by a army instructor type guy and Nell just follows him and there is also a group of others all look very fit gym types a mix of males and females this is a real suitable workout for both sexes its certainly not girlie!

The setting is like a industrial warehouse and the music is all dance no lyrics.

Starts with a 10 min warm up which really gets u hot full of stretches and lots of jogging

Then its a massive 40 min high energy fast paced no let up cardio workout that really burns !!!!

Lots of jogging and resistance and holding position moves it can be quite painful at time and i was shaking at certain points and really sweating. The guy is very straightforward and they are all just focused on the workout he is very Sargent major in his voice. He only slows down about 3 times to just walk on the spot but always picks it up fast again.

Then its upper body moves with weights and these gain can get hard on the arms a few times i changed the move to walking on the spot ( which you do all way through this bit and you work the arms) and doing biceps curls as he had you at times holding arms out straight with the weights for long time and it killed !!!

Then came the floor moves and again no let up but really beneficial ! Press ups sit ups, crunches the usual hard ones then no separate cool down but he gets you stretched and cooling down after the floor moves.

It last over a hour if you do the whole DVD and at times I hate the workout its very serious but then on other hand I love it when I get that energy and do it I felt so proud and know it done so much good.

I would give this a 8 out of 10 but this is for the fact that its a good workout its not so much fun it's serious and not for the faint hearted. It says suitable for all fitness levels on the box and that annoyed me as it's so not true its one for the hardcore. No body should beat themselves up if they cant complete this for a good few tries as its so hard stop and walk on the spot when you need to and take it at your pace but when you do it you know your on the way to being a fit person at last !

Weigh In

Yesssss get in four n half pounds off this week ! Yay that means I'm back on track to my next mini target despite Christmas and New Year ( I set myself a target of a stone off every 7 weeks that's a realistic 2 pounds a week loss )

Am feeling very pleased and full of enthusiasm as a loss tells me its working keep going.
Here's to another good week fingers crossed I'm gonna be very pro active in all areas this week as well as Diet wise and that may help me to keep doing well.

Ive got a appointment in town tomorrow walking there and back as no money till Friday so that will count as tomorrow's exercise its a good 40 mins there and back, just think It's going to rain so not such fun dammit! Oh well got to think of the calories I will burn!

Zumba Dance Fitness

A great fun class to get fit, started tonight and me and my friend loved it! Don't be to put off by this as this clip is professionals and High Impact a Instructor will tailor it to the class abilities and its such a laugh totally recommend it.

Inspiration

Hi all just thought id blog away for 5 mins before I get ready to go to town and do some errands. Had a good week food wise stayed on track and have been very healthy and feel good have been a bit lazy on the exercise front and have lacked motivation some days so only worked out twice so if I don't lose will be my own fault! Think its the horrid weather makes me just want to curl up n not do much I know if I had of exercise though it would of given me more energy and made me feel better so I'm very naughty for being bit lazy. But am feeling more focused on exercise and am excited as myself and a friend who dose WW with me are off to Zumba classes tonight woo hoo cant wait it looks so much fun on You Tube, very energetic but fun ;) So wish us luck hope we don't keel over lol.

I was thinking about Inspiration today and who has and still dose inspire me on this Journey, I think first and foremost its you that drives you it has to be but also other people maybe someone you admire can really drive you to keep at it. Mainly my own heath inspires me and also the thought of making my daughter proud and being a good positive influence on her but also a few online friends have had some amazing weight losses and shared great stories that they have become so very admired by me and show that they have been there and done it so \I know i can too.

Id love to know who or what inspires you ?

Back to weigh in

Well was back at WW tonight and am really pleased I did put on for first time since I started Diet in September but considering it was Christmas and New year I don't mind n its totally understandable plus only put on half a pound :) Woop woop so that's not to much to shift thank goodness.

So feeling very happy and had a great day doing a good hours and half of exercise so hope that helps towards a loss next week.

I want to shrink lots and lots this year fingers crossed folks !

Happy New Year

Hey peeps it's2011 hope you all had a good one. I did and am now more focused than even holiday season over time to get stuck in to achieving those goals.